TNT-Cell

Sunday, May 13, 2007

10:50 PM

http://www.zooni.org/insp47.html
~ felicia here... nobody posted in a long time...

There was a man who was asleep one night in his cabin when suddenly his room filled with light and the Savior appeared.

The Lord told the man He had a work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin. The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock with all his might.
So push the man did, day after day. For many years he toiled from sun up to sun down, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, pushing with all his might.

Each night the man returned to his cabin sore and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain, for the rock had not budged an inch.

Seeing that the man was showing signs of discouragement, Satan decided to enter the picture, placing thoughts into the man's mind such as; "You have been pushing against that rock for a long time and it hasn't budged. Why kill yourself over this? You are never going to move it? etc." Thus, giving the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure.

These thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man even more. "Why kill myself over this?" he thought. "I'll just put in my time, giving just the minimum of effort and that will be good enough." And that he planned to do, until one day he decided to make it a matter of Prayer and take his troubled thoughts to the Lord.

"Lord" he said, "I have labored long and hard in your service, putting all my strength to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, I have not even budged that rock a half a millimeter. What is wrong? Why am I failing?"

To this the Lord responded compassionately, "My friend, when long ago I asked you to serve me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to push against the rock with all your strength, which you have done. Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was simply to push."

"And now you come to me, your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so? Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back brown, your hands are calloused from constant pressure, and your legs have become massive and hard."

"Through opposition you have grown much and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have. Yet you haven't moved the rock.BUT YOUR CALLING WAS TO BE OBEDIENT, TO PUSH AND TO EXERCISE YOUR FAITH AND TRUST IN MY WISDOM, and this you have done.

I, my friend, will now move the rock."

+ AMEN

10:42 PM

here's a thanksgiving to God. I thought it'll be good to share it here.

I wanted to trust God for the full support. I heard of stories of how God provides for missions. I had a few encouragement when I first started out. Then it become really stagnant. I wasn't willing to ask after a while. I also lost the perspective of asking. I don't see how asking can become a ministry to people. I don't see that I can make it clear to people that it is to partner with them blah blah blah as they had taught us to. And if this is the case, why am I asking. It's bacause I got no money. Ha. If I have no money, why sign uo for all this? Because... I trusted that God will provide. But halfway through I found it so difficult to trust suddenly. I trusted and doubted at the same time. And in James 1:6-8, "when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea,blown and tossed by the wind."

It was like that for me. To the point where I couldn't sleep one night. But in the end I woke up to read my bible. The first passage I flipped to was matthew 7:24-27 " Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practise is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the wind blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall because it had its foundation on the rock. But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not out them into practise is like a foolish man who builts his house on the sand. The rain came down, the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash."

I didn't really digest it la. But after that I was able to sleep, feeling that my trust should lie on the rock and not collaspe just because the wind blows. Then I read another story on the internet about rocks. And this story, together with the talks I attended on obedience and humility, all seems to speak to me that it was the process that God wants to bring me through. To just keep asking even when it seems so difficult. And to not allow satan to take God's glory away through pride and unbelief. But its really very difficult. And somemore, I got no one to ask anymore. I thought very hard who I can asked liao... but my christian circle is so small... But I also had more trust somehow.

Then my miracle came. Janice(my friend) called. She had her own amazing story to tell =) She's like finished raising hers, and she still has many supporters from her church who had promised to give her. And so when she wanted to help me and another friend to raise our support.

To janice, she saw how God has indirectly blessed another two of her friends through her supporters.

To me, its like God showing me it doesn't matter how small my circle is. He's definitely bigger. I keep dwelling in my problem from my own perspective, but he has again shown me that his ways are above my ways. And my support fund suddenly jumped so much today... I was really really stunned. ( Plus I added in Ivan's fund and received another of my sister's friend fund only today also ) And when I realised I have only $198 more to raise for myself. (If I can manage to raise beyond then can go to others) I'm just so amazed!

God's grace is just so amazing. Just as the grace that I so undeserved which redeemed me from my sin. This experience has given me the trust I think I need for Beggar's mission... to just go empty-handed to spread the good news to villagers (That requires a lot of faith and trust I think )... which is the main reason why I wanted to go CM. And I saw how he really placed people to give and to provide, and even surprise me, as my SM tells me. And I realised also he place a lot of people beside me to encourage me also.

I don't know if I can thank him enough. Also thank you to all who have prayed for me. Continue praying. He answers.

+ AMEN